Amory Felix (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
fatespoken) wrote2009-04-11 01:27 am
fatespoken) wrote2009-04-11 01:27 am
∞ [fourteen]
And here I was expecting an "Amory Felix has finally gone insane" headline. But to set things straight, I don't have Mother issues. Tell me if you don't freak the next time a dead person -- your Mother at that -- suddenly appears in your room, kay?
Now to fill up more space on this entry, enjoy a picture of my dog back home. I hope he's doing a good job of stealing Erin's socks. And I do hope Erin's doing a good job of taking care of him, otherwise I may have to cut him a new one.
His name is Chau Siu Bau.
[ → Private to Eden | Unhackable ]
Hey, Leprechaun. Could I have a moment?
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Now to fill up more space on this entry, enjoy a picture of my dog back home. I hope he's doing a good job of stealing Erin's socks. And I do hope Erin's doing a good job of taking care of him, otherwise I may have to cut him a new one.
His name is Chau Siu Bau.
[ → Private to Eden | Unhackable ]
Hey, Leprechaun. Could I have a moment?
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[sup, awkward. He fidgets in his pocket for a smoke, wondering how to begin his spiel.]
...So. You've been telling me a lot of things about your family. About your past. Lots of personal stuff.
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Don' tell Eoin.
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I'd rather punch Eion in the face.
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So what's the news?
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[being a proverbial clam most of the time, he's fumbling with words right now. Who knew it'd be so hard to string words together.]
Honestly, I don't know why I want to tell you. To repay some of that trust? To get a load off my conscience? Or maybe it's because I know you won't think I'm weird? I don't even know.
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But I want to tell you. Why? I could go for cheesy and just say you're my friend. However, it's more than that. I trust you and...think you'd maybe understand.
[he finally lights his cig, which eden may note - without the need of a lighter.]
I'll stop avoiding and get to the point, I promise.
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Well, I'm listenin'.
action ;; sorry i'm so slow, sorting laundry ;_;
[a rather extended pause, as he takes a drag.]
In my world, Fate plays dictator. No Gods. No Deities. No Flying Spaghetti. Just Fate. Everything was made by her - the physical world, humans, animals, the piece of gum on your shoe.
...Except that she didn't expect her creations to become so god damn self-serving. Everything was a perfect and full of sunshine in the beginning until we realized our own capabilities and fucked things up. And no, I'm not going to make any Garden of Eden comparisons here.
action No prob~
[She listens]
So Fate fucked yeh over. Yeh're not the first.
action | sup tl;dr
[raises an eyebrow]
So human's realize that fucking people over is actually really useful for gaining the upper hand. But Fate wasn't prepared for this change- for this breakdown in morality or whatever you want to call it. You'd think Fate would know everything, being intangible and omnipotent, but I guess not.
Anyways, shit happens and humans become the broken cog in the universe. All the pieces go off track and soon we're at complete dysfunction with the Physical World. The earth. Whatever you want to call it, but the point is that it's more than just dirt and water. It's like an entity, an existence in its own. And this dysfunction equated to destruction; a friction that bore the ills of man - plagues, natural disasters, all the annoying natural things we can't control.
...Am I making any ounce of sense here or am I coming off like a crazy?
action | sexy
I'm followin'.
action | >_> sorry he's talking so much
[He nearly shakes his head at this, but stops himself.]
They were given the job of interfering, playing mediator to prevent at least some of the stuff that was going down. Wars, despots, natural disasters. Couldn't fix everything, as a history book can easily prove, but they could at least help enough to steer the world from complete destruction.
action | No prob!
Re: action | <3
[he stuffs a hand in his pocket, shifting as he grows noticeably more uncomfortable.]
It's not as glamorous as it sounds. A lot of it's just little stuff because Fate doesn't work in straight lines. It could be stopping a few small murderers because even that could be enough to cause an earthquake half-way across the globe. Or enough to spawn the ambitions of a would-be dictator. It doesn't make a lot of sense, but everything effects each other. Negative energy, karma - whatever you want to compare it to.
...But I don't do what I'm supposed to be doing. Which you've heard before, but now you've got context.
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It sounds like shite, to me. Even before yeh clarified, boyo.
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[he shrugs]
It's glamorized and romanticized when it's really a bunch of shit. Which I'm sure you probably know well enough yourself.
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Issat why yeh're in pain?
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Sort of. They're not really connected to each other, actually. Pain's more to do with bad genetics on my Father's side, while magic somehow just has to make it worse.
[pauses]
I would rather be a selfish asshole than play Jesus and put others above my own welfare. So I do shit.
[He tries to say this with complete indifference, but you may be able to catch something else there.]
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I'm supposed to play prophet to Irish royals. You don' seem me goin' about advertisin' that little fact.
Selfish is how we survive, Amory.
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[Okay, that was a horrible joke Amory. Way to try and lighten the mood and fail completely.]
...I guess so. But I get a lot of shit for not doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Others like me who refuse to leave me alone in my irresponsibility.
[another pause, as he looks away.]
And then there's Fate herself. To know what we're supposed to be preventing, we have to know what's going to happen. And over and over and over again, the same damn dream until you get off your ass and do it. And most of the time they're not fucking pleasant.
And now I'm whining, I'm sorry.
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Yeh wish.
I have blackouts. And I wish I could whine about them.
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[turns to stare at her]
You're free to whine all you want, Eden.